I’ll get around to it. I’ll do it. Later.
Things get put off. Many excuses crop up that keep me from accomplishing a simple task. Lately, it’s been feeling sick, down, or in pain. Just a constant low-grade pain eating away can diminish enthusiasm.
I didn’t bother posting 52Frames’ submission last week because it’s a consistency shot and honestly, I was embarrassed by the picture. I wasn’t quite dressed proper. I was still in my loungewear, with my tall snake boots and a hoodie jacket. I plopped down my camera on a tripod in the wee hours of the morning and shot the picture. I was feeling sick at the time and soon became sick as a dog with a migraine.
That is just a small window into my struggles. Besides sickness or low-grade pain, I am dealing with a lack of motivation or lethargy. It’s not easy wading through the quagmire and if I am not careful, thoughtful, or prayerful, I’ll sink into a pit of despair. It’s a walking tightrope I’m on and I must balance everything.
At the same time, I’m frustrated because there is so much I want to do and cannot seem to get them done now. I lack the inclination, motivation or enthusiasm. So, stuff piles up around here. That’s okay though, it’ll get done. Someday. Maybe tomorrow. Or next week. Or next year.
Note, there may be gaps in posting from here on as I’m gearing up preparations for camping trips in mid-May and end of May. Let the list making begin! Actually, I’ll start that tomorrow.
I was playing around with the use of complementary colors as negative space. I boosted the shadows and mid-tones. I also slightly adjusted the saturation. I was trying to give it a mix of an otherworldly and natural look. It didn’t turn out like I wanted; but, I still like the shot.
FYI: The title of this post is the name of this dragon and it’s part of a now-defunct Krystonia figurine series. It is one of my favorite figurines out of the collection.
My first 52Frames’ Submission, snapped on June 12, 2018
I went searching for quotes to inspire me into writing. Enjoy.
There’s nothing like the peace of the countryside, the quiet and the lack of distraction. It helps you to focus your mind.
~ Jenny Nimmo ~
I do love my little spot on this earth. It’s extremely peaceful. It’s not very big; but, it’s bigger than what the average city or suburban dweller owns. Neighbors are not all in your business even though there is essentially no privacy. We are allowed to do pretty much as we please include letting the land go wild in Spring.
However, living here doesn’t always help me focus. My mind tends to wander much like the flittering butterfly in search of nectar. It tends to jump from one thing after another which is why I never seem to accomplish a single task.
I agree there is nothing like the countryside and the peace that comes living here; but, it doesn’t take care of the distractions going on within my mind. I am usually able to push all the noise inside aside if I am involved something I am passionate about, must focus on a conversation, or have a camera in hand.
Run Peep, Run!
Here is what I wrote:
I don’t think I ever created a diorama in my life. I’ve been wanting to just to have fun. I don’t think I ever built things with Lego before either. I’ve played with them whenever my brothers brought theirs down; but, I never had a set of my own. Dan (my husband) and I had a good time building the dinosaur together one evening. Everything is food except the background, the base (foil), and, of course, the dinosaur. I used stale cookies (on a diet here), Potato Stixs, cheese balls, Broccoli, red gel, frosting (as glue) and the infamous Peeps! I hoped the tinfoil base would look like water in the back.
I forgot to mention that there is Thyme on top of the cookie base. And, it’s a consistency shot.
Historic Annunciation Catholic Church in St. Hedwig, Texas.
This is one of the lesser known painted churches of Texas and the street is lined with historical light posts. (It was misty with an occasional raindrop when I took this picture.)
I took this as a consistency shot during the week of 52Frames’ “City at Night” challenge. There is not much to my city and I’ve always thought this church located in a nearby town is beautiful. One of these days, I would love to explore the church inside, with permission of course.
Here is a link for more information about this town and church:
The History of St. Hedwig, Texas
March 28, 2019
It’s crazy how several little things happening seemingly at once get me down. Let the negativity (in my mind) begin. Discouragement and Depression creep in. I want to give up. I have nothing of value to show for what I’ve done in my life. Nothing. I feel absolutely worthless.
I was really bad off this morning. I still kind of am. Dan (my husband) knew it. He sat down beside me and asked what’s wrong? I didn’t want to cry. I hate to cry. It leaves me feeling crappy and headachy. But, I did tell him I was feeling worthless. He looked me in the eye and basically told me I was everything to him. I’m not worthless. It made me feel slightly better.
A little voice within reminded me God is like that. We are of value to Him no matter what we have done (or not done) in life. He knows us through and through. We are not worthless to Him.
I just need to remember this fact.
I just need to be patient and trust in Him.
I just need to keep on pursuing (being consistent with) these little endeavors and little goals of mine. They are helping me to live. to heal. to grow.
I just need to wait (patiently) for the answer(s). It may be He’s waiting until I’m in a good place mentally. Who knows the mind of God? I certainly don’t.
I really do not want to post this. But, I promised myself long ago that I would keep this honest. I would keep this real. I would keep this true. If I don’t like the feeling of “fakeness” within other people’s writings, why should I be the same? So, here it is for what it is worth. Be kind.
Riverwalk Nights II
I took this one attempting to get the scenery of the walkway bridge and walls with the river. The light trails are from a riverboat. I have an extremely difficult decision choosing between this one and my actual submission. In the end, due to some of the light trails being overexposed and people movement, I went with my other picture.