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Framers Friday: In the Middle

Recursive Middle

This is a consistency shot. This will be our first Thanksgiving alone (not spent with family). I was feeling melancholy; so, I started playing around with the concept of flat lays. I began with the heart pendant, a childhood piece of jewelry. I surrounded the heart with my charm bracelet; each charm is meaningful to me. The top left pendants represents my dad (the oak) and mother (loved Christmas). The top right is my beloved Gram. All the angels are in memory of all the people who touched my life and are gone from this earth. It’s Fall Y’all. So, I used petals from flowers with the colors of Fall. The rings represent commitment and marriage. The tassel is just because I adore tassels.

Here is a close alternate:

This is an old abandoned building in the middle of a field. I have no clue to what purpose it served and that fascinates me.  I wonder about its history.

The following is a reject. It’s the first picture I took for this challenge. Usually, my first shots are consistency shots — something I will have to submit if I obtain nothing else.

I gathered up all the cat toys, piled them up and left a small hole in the center.  I dropped a treat in the middle. I wanted to give up the impression she was hunting for her favorite toy.

Note: This challenge is week 46 of the year. To see all the submissions, including mine, go here.  Warning! There are 631 pictures in this album.  A person can only submit one picture for the week. This means over 631 people participated this week.  By the way, there are some awesome pictures in that album!

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FMF: One


11.19.2018

I quickly set up the arrangement above and shot it this morning after I written for today’s post.  I had to have the whiteboard in the background (Dan held it up for me) since the original kitchen background was too busy.  I then discovered the cutting board was cut off and distracting.  So, I cloned parts of the cutting board. It’s not perfect; but, I liked it better than the original.  There are flaws; but, I’m not doing anything more to the picture.  And besides, it’s good enough for this post.

divider-clipart-divider_line_medI am lacking inspiration this morning.  It’s Thanksgiving week and for the first time in my life and in our married life, we are not going to be with family or friends.  We will be together and alone.

Dan is looking forward to just us cooking and being together.  I’m on the fence.  I am not sure how I feel about not being with family over a major holiday such as Thanksgiving.  On the flip side, there is no stress or worry about what others think of me along with conversations flowing around me.   I won’t feel so helpless in a crowded kitchen.  I will actually be of help and a participant in the making of this year’s feast.

When I am with family, all I can do to help make the gravy. This changed last year.  It used to be my Mother’s gravy which was also miraculously gluten free.  The gravy was the one thing I could help with and now I had nothing. I felt useless. I observed so much last year that made me feel isolated, helpless, and alone.

The gravy was also one thing that tied everything together.  Most of us within the family would pour it over mash potatoes, turkey and even the stuffing.  Since I could no longer have stuffing1, I would look forward to having gravy.  But, that too was taken away from me.  Can you imagine the pain and sorrow of no longer being able to have gravy?

I know, it’s silly.  But, that is how I felt.

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Interesting. My writing flowed into the one-word prompt nicely.

By the way, I adjusted rather nicely after I had to go outside and have a melt-down. Dan managed to tear himself away and found me.  Even though I was deeply embarrassed to be found crying, He helped me recover.  And, it was still a delicious dinner in spite of the lack of gravy.

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Framers Friday: Opposites Attract


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Consistency shot and first week with new lens (EF24-70mm f2.8L II USM].

I virtually have no knowledge of portrait photography, But, I had fun playing around.  If I had the space and lighting, I might try portraits more often. By the way, I’m fortunate to have a husband willing to join me in my madness. 

Here is an alternative that I love better; but, is not quite what I was shooting for.

Note: This challenge is week 45 of the year. To see all the submissions, including mine, go here.  Warning! There are 609 pictures in this album.  A person can only submit one picture for the week. This means over 600 people participated this week.  By the way, there are some awesome pictures in that album!

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FMF: Burden

We should try our best to pour out all the burdens in our spirit by prayer until all of them have left us.
~ Watchman Nee ~
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I have no trouble laying down my burdens at the feet of my Savior.  I often cry out to him when I am in the throes of despair.  It is He who keeps me alive.  Without Him and my faith, I would not be here today writing this five-minute post.

However, It’s not easy to share my burdens with others. My fellow humans are so quick to judge or do not want/desire to understand, have no patience, etc., and etc..  Too often pat answers are given sending me further down into the depths of darkness.

I’ve learned early on in life to not express myself.  I was extremely young when I was told to “pull yourself up by the bootstraps”.  I  had to ask the person what that phrase meant.  He basically explained I was way too sensitive and needed to toughen up. I remember silently resolving to keep my thoughts to myself and cry alone.

It is not easy to share burdens with anyone because I know all too well what it’s like to be laughed at and told I could not be serious1.  It’s not easy to share frustrations only to be told they do not understand2.   All those things and much more in my young life sent me further into isolation, darkness, and despair.

These things and holding them close to heart did not end upon giving my life to Christ (1979). The thoughts that drive me into darkness, despair, and depression are fewer and further apart but they still come to me once in a blue moon. Being a Christian doesn’t mean all things are rosy and perfect. I still have difficulties in life.  But, now I have faith and can confide in Someone who understands. divider-clipart-divider_line_med

  1. for thinking of suicide
  2. what it is like to be deaf

Footnotes:
I did plan to kill myself before setting foot in high school. From the day I gave my life to Christ, I knew I could never ever commit the final act knowing how God feels about murder. (Suicide is the murder of self).

If you see me rise up speaking passionately concerning all things suicide, bullying, and youth, it’s only because I deeply understand what may drive them to commit the final desperate act.  The inner pain, despair, and feeling oh so alone drives you to want to end it all.   This could have been me if not for God and Viola Mae (my Gram).

If you see me speak of certain things repeatedly, it’s because it’s close to my heart and/or something I’m currently struggling with or working through.  I am not having an easy time sharing myself (my thoughts) with my husband who is my partner in life.  You would think after 24 years of marriage, it’d be easy. It’s not for me.

 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
~ Matthew 11:28-30 ~

 

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Framers Friday: Macros


Water Diamonds

There are times when our property is covered with an extremely heavy dew. As the sun rises, the land will blaze with sparkling water diamonds. It’s an absolutely beautiful sight to behold. There is a very short time frame to see the dew sparkling. It’s a challenge to take pictures to demonstrate what I am seeing. It’s an even bigger challenge to take macro shots.

Note: This challenge is week 44 of the year. To see all the submissions, including mine, go here.  Warning! There are 677 pictures in this album.  A person can only submit one picture for the week. This means 677 people participated this week.  By the way, there are some awesome pictures in that album!

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