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Where {Five Minute Friday}

{Shot by Dan years ago}

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I’ve been asking myself a lot of questions these days.  I’m keeping myself busy. But, is it enough?

What the heck am I doing?

Where am I going?

What is my purpose (in life)?

I’m thankful I did not have a job when I was frequently sick. I did not need the worry and stress of a career on top of my health.

I’m thankful I have an extremely supportive husband.   He constantly tells me that I do not need to worry about getting a job, a career, or even bringing in a little income. But, I do not think he truly understands my mindset.

It’s not just about money.  It’s also about purpose.  It’s about feeling like I’ve accomplished something meaningful, helped (served) others, etc., and etc.

I currently feel like a failure as a wife and homemaker.  This house is still not complete.  I haven’t done much in the way of crafts. I am so darn slow and my mind frequently gets in the way.  I’m not the wife my husband needs me to be.  I am not bringing in any source of income (yet).

It doesn’t matter what I do, I feel like I do not have a true purpose.

What in the world am I suppose to be doing?

Why am I letting fear rule (ruin) my life?

I’m doing my best to go beyond what I did (or accomplished) last year, to add to what I’ve been pursuing.  So far, I feel like I am not succeeding.   This is understandable considering recent circumstances.1 But still, I feel like it’s not enough.

Why was I born?

Why am I here on earth?

I ask these questions and more (to God) often. I’ve yet to receive clear answers.

I feel like I’m just floundering and hoping to land on solid ground.

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~ Christopher Morley

  1. My husband broke his collarbone on January 12.FYI: He’s doing well. He drove himself to work this morning.  He’s been doing some modified physical therapy.  He’s still hurting; but, he has enough range of movement.  I just pray that nothing disastrously happens that would cause him to move that arm suddenly.

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Nature · Photography · Uncategorized

Bluebonnet: Focus Stacking

I played around a couple of weeks ago with the concept of focus stacking.  I knew it was going to be an extra credit portion for the 52Frame’s macro challenge. Since I was playing around, I didn’t try to be perfect with taking pictures.

I took three macro shots of the same plant but each one was focused on a different part of the plant.  The first picture focused at the bottom. The second in the center. And, the third at the top.  (All three were taken with an aperture of f/2.8.)

I then tried my hand at focus stacking with these three pictures yesterday.  I was absolutely floored at the result.  Check out my first attempt at focus stacking:

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Convenient {Five Minute Friday}


A tiny portion of our land on March 27, 2018

My writing went in a totally different direction than I intended.  My fingers were flying across the keyboard. I almost scrapped this bit of writing with the intention of starting over due to my fear of causing offense.  However, I have learned to relax whenever this is happening.  If I accidentally offend people, this was not my intention. All I ask is please remember that five minutes (or a tad more) is not enough to get the entire picture of my thoughts.

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TV dinners, trains, fast food, telephones, planes, internet, pesticides, etc., and etc., have risen up over the years making our lives easier and more convenient.   We have embraced these things with full-on passion without question trusting in the “experts” and our governmental agents.  Was this a mistake?

For the most part, and for many people, there were no negative effects.  However, I cannot help but worry about the negative effects on a few within society and the environment.

For example, what is killing off the butterflies (e.g. Monarchs) and all kinds of species of bees?  What is causing such a negative effect upon these tiny creatures?  And, why does it seem the vast majority of people do not care about their world?

If there was even a hint that the use of pesticides was a cause of the ecological illness, I’d stop using them immediately, which I have done.  Granted, there are other factors, such as the Varroa mite, which are helping the decimation of these tiny creatures.  However, the use of pesticides is certainly not helping.

I remember millions of bees suddenly died off at a business nearby where we once lived.  What was discovered to be the cause? A pesticide company sprayed the trees a few days before. The bees were collecting pollen from the flowers that burst forth.

The need to keep a manicured lawn/landscape and make the work easier overrides the need to keep the ecosystem healthy.  I once lived in an HOA community that once required beautiful green lawns and landscape.  This meant wasting water to keep the yard in pristine conditions. At the time, we were in the middle of a devastating drought.  Did this matter?

People went around the city’s watering restrictions by sitting in a chair and watering the grass via a hose.  I always felt this was amusing.  They would rather have a pristine green lawn as opposed to conserving water.  In one community, people rose up and sued their HOA because they were getting fines for having brown spots on their lawns.  It’s damned if you do (water)1 and damned if you don’t (water).  I honestly believe it’s due to the outcome of the lawsuit (the people won), the HOA of the community I lived in and most homeowners relaxed.

I am only one individual among millions and the fight against giants with bottomless income seems impossible.  The only thing I can do is console myself with the thought that, at least, I am doing my part through conservation (water), recycling, and severely limiting pesticides.  I’ve even gone native letting the land go.

I am ever thankful that we do not live in a restrictive community.  It’s gorgeous in the springtime due to the abundant wildflowers on our land. The negative side is the sticker burrs.  I’ve yet to figure out how to eliminate or minimize them.

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  1. It’s more costly to use water in times of drought.
Photography · Travel · Uncategorized

New Braunfels, Texas

I whiled away my time in New Braunfels on January 21st while Dan worked at his office. He had a meeting that day.  So, I took him to work and picked him up since he couldn’t drive with a broken collarbone.   I was a little punch drunk by the time I returned home as I was operating with just 4 to 5 hours of sleep.

Oh, I didn’t tell you? I stayed up to help my astronomy loving man with his mega-sized telescope to watch the lunar eclipse. One of the pieces is 40 pounds!  There was no way I was going to let him do it by himself with a broken collarbone.  It was fun and I now can claim to have seen a lunar eclipse. I never had the inclination to stay up to watch one.

Anyway, here are a few pictures I took while in New Braunfels, Texas.  Enjoy.


Ghosts on the Comal River
Landa Park


Fishing on the Guadalupe
Shot from Faust Street Bridge

Tried my hand shooting through a “keyhole” which is a bridge support column.
Shot while on Faust Street Bridge

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Photography · Uncategorized

Framer’s Friday: Hello From…


…My Studio!

My little town is considered to be a bedroom community where many of the people commute to a nearby city to work. There is history to this tiny town; but, everything is ho hum. I’ve roamed the country roads trying to find anything of interest. I took a few pictures; but, they had no pop. I must give thanks to one of my sub-group members for this idea when I asked for a little help! This will have to do for my submission.

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Influence {Five Minute Friday}

I usually take the time to write first thing Monday morning. However, I will be taking my husband to work tomorrow.  He has an important meeting to attend.  I think he is going stir crazy even though he is working from home.  He wants to go somewhere even if it’s to the office.   So, I am writing this early Sunday evening and scheduling this to be posted Monday morning.

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I recently had a nightmare.  Dreams can be mighty strange.  Well, this one caused me to do something just in case something similar happens.  I’m sure many would think allowing a nightmare to influence what I do is crazy.  But, I would rather be safe than sorry.

Speaking of dreams, I wonder how much our heart’s desire influences our decisions and the paths we decide to take in life?

I know that the combination of my fears and respect for certain people now gone from this earth swayed me to abandon the desires of my heart.  I constantly wonder if it is silly or too late to pursue them?  After all, I’m not exactly young anymore.

I do know that I am content with a camera in hand or typing out my thoughts.  My soul calms down and I obtain peace.  So, I play with words or take snapshots of memories. Frequently.

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