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Balance (Five Minute Friday)

Balance is not something you find, it’s something you create.”
~ Jana Kingsford ~divider-clipart-divider_line_med

I started writing and photography as a means of self-therapy.  I feel like I’ve reached a healthy place.   I am ready to add something else to the mix.

Whenever I think of all the things I’d like to do, I begin to feel overwhelmed.  I do not want to shut down or quit.   So, I will carefully add just one or two things to the mix while making sure I continue to write on the Five Minute Fridays prompts and participate in 52Frames‘ photography challenges.

It’s critical for me to remember it’s okay to fall off the bandwagon with new endeavors as long as I maintain the other areas of my life. I will keep dusting myself off and keep trying with the new “goals”.  It will be okay if I don’t achieve consistency with the new objectives right off the bat.  Slow and steady wins the race.
divider-clipart-divider_line_medI didn’t spend a whole lot of thought or time on this bit of writing.  As with all things, consistency is the key.

Never discourage anyone who continually makes progress, no matter how slow.
~ Unknown; the quote is often attributed to Plato but is not confirmed ~

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Framer’s Friday

Christmas Tree Lighting Ceremony
La Vernia, Texas
December 1, 2018

I honestly want to quit after this challenge. I’ve only taken 19 pictures and this was the best shot out of them all. The rest were crappy. It makes me wonder why I am even trying. This was shot at the Christmas Tree Lighting Ceremony in our tiny city.

Note: This challenge is week 48 of the year. To see all the submissions, including mine, go here.  Warning! There are 638 pictures in this album.  A person can only submit one picture for the week. This means over 635 people participated this week.  By the way, there are some awesome pictures in that album!

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Nature · Photography · Uncategorized

What the Bug?

I believe this is a Longjawed Longhorn Beetle
of the family Cerambycid.
Trachyderes mandibularis
Hosts: Citrus, Parkinsonia, Salix, Celtis

Dan (my husband) spied this critter September 29th.  We both didn’t know what the heck this critter was.  So, I quickly swapped the lens on my camera for the macro and snapped a few pictures for bug identification. After a little research, I discovered the above information.

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Uncategorized · Writing

Deep {Five Minute Friday}

Five Minute Friday is taking time off for the holidays.    As for myself, I do not really wish to take a break from writing.  Consistency, at this time, is very important to me.  So, I am in search of a word (or question) prompt for both December 28th and January 4th. If any of you have a word (or a question) you wish me to write on, please don’t hesitate to let me know.  I’m not making any promises; but, I will do my best to respond to a couple of requests.

All quotes, parenthesis, etc., and etc. below were inserted after writing. Enjoy.

divider-clipart-divider_line_medI tend to write down quotes which make me think or tug at my heartstrings (or are deep). I ran across words the other day which made me think.  Of course, I had to write them down in my quote book.

“If intentionality means acting according to your beliefs, then the opposite would be operating on autopilot. In other words, do you know why you’re doing what you’re doing?”

Why am I doing what I’m doing?  The immediate answer was “survival”.  I began bullet journalling as a means of accomplishing the very basics in life.  The daily logs would help me keep on track and the journal method would keep me sane.

It was a struggle in the beginning because I was extremely depressed at the time.  I hadn’t done any list tracking or journalling for a long time. So, things such the daily log were done on auto-pilot for a while.  I still am depressed; but, I am not as bad off as I was from the start.  I am slowly getting out of the pit I was in.

Once I reach a point of stability, I sought a means of forcing myself to “get out”.   I’ve long enjoyed both writing and photography.  So, I decided to do something with both.  I joined groups at the beginning of this year in order to hold myself accountable to my resolutions.

So, what would my answer be to the above question now?  Why am I doing what I’m doing?  What is my intentionality (if any) behind it all?

I would not only say “survival” but I would also say “seeking a way to gain meaning to my life and work”.divider-clipart-divider_line_medI am being intentional in getting out via writing and photography. I’ve also been wanting to improve my skills in photography.   Last week’s 52Frames challenge (“roll of 24”) brought me down to an extreme low.

What in the world am I doing?  Why am I even still trying? The weekly challenge only proved to me that I have no skills, still do not have enough understanding of how everything works, etc, and etc. It was the worst week ever.

I have dreams and I’m nowhere near close to being able to achieve them. So, I despaired. What do I do now?  I don’t know what to do and if I did, I wouldn’t know how to go about doing them.

I remembered other photographers in the group saying it took them seven or 10 years to get where they are now.  I’ve only been actively pursuing this less than a year.  I regained a little hope.  I’m dusting myself off and getting back on track.  To get where I want to be, it’s going to take persistence and hard work. I can’t quit now.

And Dan, sweet Dan, gave me a “job” yesterday of taking a picture.  I will be “processing” the pictures I took later today after I get the usual daily tasks completed.

  1. The Bullet Journal Method: Track the Past, Order the Present, Design the Future by Ryder Carroll

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Framers Friday: Gratitude


Kissing the Cook

For the first time in my life and in our married life, we had Thanksgiving (holiday in the states) alone together. It’s always been with family and friends… until now. I am thankful he tackled the main course.

Note: This challenge is week 47 of the year. To see all the submissions, including mine, go here.  Warning! There are 625 pictures in this album.  A person can only submit one picture for the week. This means over 620 people participated this week.  By the way, there are some awesome pictures in that album!

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There’s a Story Behind This Picture

There is a story of behind this 52Frames alternate picture I shot on Thanksgiving for the gratitude (week 47) challenge. I had this idea in my mind; but, I didn’t want to bring it up as I felt it would be hypocritical on his part. After I took a picture of me grabbing his hand and kissing it at the dinner table, he brought up this idea for the challenge. I was surprised and said I didn’t think it’d be right. It’d be hypocritical on his part considering he is agnostic/atheist. He responded that he bows his head and closes his eyes out of respect (for others) whenever prayer is being said. After a little bit of discussion, I decided to go for this shot I had in my mind. I really love the unspoken story of mutual respect and love we have for one another.

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Uncategorized · Writing

FMF: Value


Note: This was picture shot for an old, now defunct, WordPress Photography challenge.
If you’re interested, you can see details here.

What is a value?  Seriously.  Think about it.  What has value?  Ethics, core values (fundamental beliefs), property (things), etc., and etc. all have an assigned value (or the lack of value). The degree of value varies from person to person and oftentimes, it is what drives a person.

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I have always placed a high value on my faith.  But, there are times when I neglected to read and study God’s word regularly.  If I placed such a high value on my relationship with the Lord, should I not nourish it through prayer and reading of His word regularly? I have fallen on and off the bandwagon throughout the years.

It’s hard because I have been neglectful for a long time.  I have been slowly and surely returning home to Him. I pray. Often.  I research His word, frequently.  It’s challenging to make reading and studying his Word a regular event because I’m essentially alone in my walk with God.  I feel alone.

It’s also difficult due to my personality, which tends to be all or nothing.  In other words, I may pursue something of high value to me at the cost of all others. Finding balance isn’t easy for the likes of me.  divider-clipart-divider_line_medI feel like I should explain (expound) further; but, I am not ready nor do I have the inclination to do so at this moment. Later. Maybe.

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