(A selfie I took in 2011 for a challenge)
I broke the rules of just five minutes of writing with this one. I felt the need to just free write and not pay attention to this rule. I’m sure I’m not the only one who does this. I did go back and insert parentheses to help clear up to my writing to readers. Also, this is personal and random (not perfect) — it does not contain everything and may not make sense (to you).
As a believer, I sometimes go through periods of questioning. I think it’s okay to have doubts. I think it’s okay to question what others say. I also think it’s okay to not accept things (said) as fact and do my own research.
There are those who claim science says there is no God. I disagree. Science cannot prove there is a God. But, it’s all schematics to atheists. It’s just a theory; but, it’s considered as fact.
I honestly think that there is more behind their unbelief than just science. They don’t want to believe a God exists because they want to do their own thing. They don’t want to believe a God exists because it’s a threat to their lifestyle. They want to be their own God.
I’m not going to lie, I haven’t been living for God like I should have throughout the years. But, my faith is strong. I’ve been slowly finding my way back home for the last few years.
I don’t argue (or debate) with any of them (atheists). I’m not going to waste my time. They’re not going to change their minds. They only want to argue or even bully/mock my beliefs. So, why try? It’s the same with me. They’re not going to get me to change my mind. So, why try?
If there is no God, why isn’t the world (nature) more chaotic? There’s is an order in the universe that defies explanation.
If there is no God, I would have been dead by my own hand years ago.
If there is no God, why I have seen answered prayers? Granted, these are rare simply due to the fact I do not often have specific detailed requests. Also, answered prayers often go unrecognized simply because requests tend to be tiny and/or we’re too busy in our lives to stop to recognize them (answered prayers).
An answered prayer occurred recently that only reinforces that my God exists and cares personally about me. It is beyond amazing (to me).
(A little background:)
We had planned two camping trips. One was canceled due to flooding and the other was due to a variety of reasons including Dan’s work.
I was devastated with the cancelation of the first because we were to meet up with a brother and sister-in-law of mine. I was wanting to see them. I was deeply bothered and upset with the cancelation; but, there was nothing we could do. I came to accept this happened.
But, I prayed that we’d get together somehow sometime soon and not over the holidays. (Holidays are too busy for true visiting.)
I also prayed that we (Dan and I) get a chance to go camping before summer was over as I was wanting, no needing, to get away. It had to be summer-time because I love to be in a body of water. I had planned to take a float along with some snacks and just be lazy in the water reading a book. Anyway…
This the answer to my prayer(s) as short and succinctly as possible:
Firstly, letters in the form of emails were started up by my sister-in-law’s own hand. And, we’ve been exchanging them ever since. This alone is nothing. But, it’s been a good thing for me/us.
Secondly, Dan managed to get a site at Garner for camping. I didn’t even seek out or try to find a site. I just did not think we could find one anywhere during the summer. I did have an inclination to try later this summer for a site at Guadalupe River when kids are back in school. But, Dan found a site for late July all on his own. The fact he did this and the fact a site was available surprised me immensely.
Thirdly, my sister-in-law informed me in a letter (via email) they are going camping at Garner. Her sister-in-law’s family is going and they had an extra site. My brother and sister-in-law jumped on this chance.
Fourthly and most importantly, they’re going the exact same dates we are going! I was floored. What are the odds of this happening? Neither one of us knew what the other was doing until everything was set in stone.
And, if all things work out, it should be a good time.